Ronald R. Persaud

New Year 2016

December 31, 2015
A lot has been lost, learned, gained, and endured this year. And for everything I'm thankful because he increased my faith and made me stronger than before. A few things I've leaned is that I have too my expectations in people and then I end up getting disappointed, I tried to please people but still they weren't happy, I worry about silly things and most of the time I wanted people to validate what I was doing in order for me to feel better about myself. Then I come back and realize that I've seen all of these characteristics in my dad and instead of me going down the same path I should at least use it and make it a lesson in live because I've lived through it. With this being said I will have no expectations or anyone but myself, I will do everything in my life to my fullest abilities and if it doesn't work at least I know I tried my best and I need to trust and be proud of who I am and what I have done. Thank you daddy, mommy, and God for these lessons and hopefully I can make 2016 much better than 2015. Love hugs and kisses...until we meet again daddy....

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3 Years Anniversary

December 13, 2015
It has been over 3 years now since I last heard your voice. I remember those phone calls I would get from you when you used to tell us you didn't want your three children to fight, you wanted us to live in unity. I can only hope that we're making you proud by not fighting each other and supporting one another. I know that you're guiding us and you're watching over us because when things seem difficult at first somehow we get it done. I know that you're giving us strength and you're protecting...
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IMRP: Do your best and being silent...

September 26, 2015
My father was a recluse. He did not care much about what was popular or who he should impress in life. One thing was true to core was his love for his mother. He went as far as to sell his wedding ring to buy a present for his mother. I'm not saying this made him a wonderful person as his actions did hurt my mother but I just wanted to show the depth of his love for his mother. He wanted to be the best for his mother but in the end he was unable to say good-bye to her when she passed away and...
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Realization and Appreciation

August 2, 2015
It's been a while since my last entry and I have to say it's not because I didn't think about my father, it's just so easy to get caught up in things that are not important. In these moments I realized that I will always have a place in my heart for my father but at the same time I have to continue moving on with life. To come to such a realization was not easy because the moment of feeling guilty that I'm ok with moving on, a part of me can't help to think that I will forget him and this is ...
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Christmas 2014

December 25, 2014
Wishing you a Merry Christmas daddy in heaven. Thank you for everything you've done and guiding us this year. I hope you're happy and proud of what we have done and accomplished so far. I see all the bad things that are happening all around me and I begin to feel blessed for the safe haven, dreams and hopes you and mommy had and still have in us. I am thankful for everything this year even my struggles because without them I wouldn't be where I am today. So on this Christmas day I want...
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2nd Year Anniversary

December 12, 2014
Hi Daddy,

It's been a while since I posted but things are a little complex from when I last posted. I hope you're proud of what I am doing but I also know that you would want me to be happy. I am happy and thankful for everything you and mommy have taught me in life. I know without these experiences, challenges and obstacles life would not be life. The truth is sometimes I think it's too much for one person to handle and every time I think that I have it worse I think of everything you had to ...
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Happy Father's Day in Heaven 2014

June 14, 2014
Hi Daddy,
Just want to wish you a Happy Father's Day in Heaven. I've been away for a while and I'm sure you know what's been going on. Every time I am ready to give up I think about what you had to go through and realize that the things I face in this world today can ever compare to what you had to go through. One piece of advice I try to use daily  that you always said was "na take worries", so you know what I am not...whatever happens will happen. I also remember the "serenity prayer" you to...
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Everything Happens for a Reason

May 4, 2014
Today I was put in a position to be there for someone and I know that I tried my very best. This was one of the toughest decision I've ever had to make in my life. I did everything I could and i know that there is nothing else I can do or could have done differently. See at this moment in my life someone is going through the same things my father went through and it is so difficult having to watch the same events repeat themselves while standing there helplessly. I know that the events that I...
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55 Years and Counting...

March 21, 2014
Today my dad would have been 55 years old. If he was still with us I know I would have received a phone call from him. I don't get to hear his voice anymore or his words of advice "not to take on worries". All I have to do is live with the memories and knowing that he is looking out for us.I hope we can make him proud of us on his birthday. There are so many things that our father has helped us out with through this year and I know he will continue walking besides us. Love you daddy...until w...
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Taking one day at a time

February 20, 2014
I have to say there have been moments when I want to fall apart, but I think about what my dad had to go through and it gives me the courage to go on with life. I am not talking about my career or anything for that matter, its more about being accepted. No matter what I do I am being judged. I think that my dad had to face the same dilemma. Of course he had some bad moments but so many people focus on his bad habits than all the sacrifices he made for the people around him. When I think about...
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New Years 2014

January 1, 2014
Hey daddy,
Technically it's not the first day of the New Year yet. Even though I'm in Istanbul and it's 1:04am, I'm still going to wait for the New Year to begin according to New York time which is in the next four hours. This year my resolution is to be more humble, just like you. I posted a few Christmas photos on facebook and this girl made a comment about the kind of person you are (I'm not going to say you were, because you're still my dad). This is what she wrote "i did knew him when him...
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Christmas 2013

December 25, 2013
Hi Daddy, Today is Christmas and for some reason I don't feel all that alone because instead of thinking of you being far away, I choose to believe that we're driving home for Christmas. One day we will be together again for Christmas. By thinking this way I will believe that you're only a drive away from us. Also just wanted to share this memory with you.  I remember one Christmas in Florida we all woke up early and opened our presents. After we finished opening our presents we all spent tha...
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One Year Ago

December 13, 2013
Hi Daddy,

Today is the one year mark since you left us and went to God's Kingdom. I know that you're watching over us and helping us through our difficult moments. Daddy, I am not going to lie, I wish things were a lot different than they were. I don't know where to start so I'm not going to bring up any bad feelings. Its just so strange how things happened the way they did. I have to believe that God knows what he's doing, so I am not going to question his choice. I just want to let you know ...
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Realizing My Dad Will Always Be a Part of Us

March 30, 2013
I always say that my father is the kind of person that would give anyone his last dollar. He was not concerned with money, he just want everyone to be happy. I saw this last night with my brother, although my bother is going through a difficult time financially, he still wants to make everyone around him have a good time. His friend's sister passed away so he was trying to help him keep his mind off that he can't go back any sooner to Trinidad. My cousin came from Guyana and my brother is mak...
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Little Signs

February 23, 2013
Today, I woke up and just scroll through my facebook account. I saw this little quote that made me cry. My father's gemstone is aquamarine. I've been trying to buy a piece of jewelry in aquamarine to wear. It just happens this morning I saw this and it made me cry. To me I feel like my father is watching over me.


 

Today (3/11/13) on my way to work, when the bus stopped to pick up passengers, I was facing a light pole with the numbers 2213. For me this was a little sign, because my father's Bir...
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Memories & Moment with my Dad

January 28, 2013
To remember my dad, every day I will write something, anything about him. This way he will always be alive with me, in my heart and soul.

My dad always wanted the best for his three children. I remember him making us study on Saturdays and Sundays. After three hours of studying, we had to revise what we studied to him. The one word that I remember him always testing me on was "substance". I had to give the definition, and spell it back to him. I don't know why that word always gave me so much ...
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Missing My Daddy


I love my father very much. On December 13, 2012 he was murdered by his brother, sister and nephew over a house. They bribed the police in Guyana to cover up his death. There were no doctors or police present to certify his death. I still cannot believe that I will never hear my father's voice again, or I won't see that content smile on his face. Daddy I love you so much, I just want to know that you're alright.

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