Hi Daddy,

Wishing you a happy 65th in heaven. I know that you're looking down on us and hope you're proud of us and how far we have come. I also want to let you know that your bothers have stepped in to help us in so many ways that we can go on this journey with ease and peace in our hearts. I am forever thankful to know that by helping us helped me understand that your brother loved and cared for you in his ways, not always the way you wanted :) I believe that since you're not here, he steppe...
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Hi Daddy,
Today is the 11th year since you left us for YAHUAH'S kingdom. I have to say "counting" because every day is a reminder that you're not with us. I pray that your soul is at peace. There are moments where I still tear up thinking about not being there when you called. I want to believe that you saw that the burdens of this society preventing me from going back to Guyana. Also, your daughter posted a tribute to you on Facebook and the song she chose reminded me how often you used to li...
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Hi Daddy,
It's been a long time since I've posted any updates and it's not because I am not thinking of you. You're always on my mind and in my heart. I just don't want to write something just to write something. I know that you see what is going on in my every day life and the journey we're on but I want to take this time to say how thankful I am that YAHUAH loves me so much that you were and still in my life. The values and morals that you instilled in me reminds me every day that without yo...
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Hi Daddy,
Just stopping by to wish you a happy 64th birthday in heaven. I added the picture above because this is how I remember you most of the time. When you got home from work and while mommy was cooking dinner, you sat in your hammock on the veranda, with a cigarette in your hand and your shot glass on the window sail looking out at the sunset. We would be studying in the dining area and sometime looked out the window and see you wondering off. I want to believe that this is the space wher...
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Hi Daddy,
Today makes it 10 years. 10 years ago, early in the morning I remember mommy walking into the room and calling my name in a quiet voice. As she was speaking, her eyes were tearing up and her voice was trembling when she said, your uncle called and said your father passed away. I will never forget that feeling of the hurt from that moment to today. I realized that the innocent world I lived in that nothing bad has happened in my life was now gone and shattered. I was no longer special...
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Hi Daddy,

Want to wish you a happy and sweet 63rd birthday in heaven. I know I'm a few days late but isn't this how it was when you were with us. It's so easy to get caught up in this world. Everytime I go down memory lane, it's just reminds me of how blessed we are to have you in our lives. You always wanted the best for us and you were always proud of our accomplishments. This is my gift to you, to let YAHUAH know how grateful I am that he allowed us to have you in our life. Wishing you a wo...
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Hi Daddy,
Going on 9 years and all we can do is hope and pray that we're making you proud to be called your children. I thank YAHUAH for giving me a dream to let me know that you're okay. In my dream, I saw you with your bother on a beach but in the background there was an incomplete construction highrise. I saw your bother ask you to get something from the construction site which you did and went back to him. He put his arm around you as you both were looking out at the sea. It made my heart ...
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Hi Daddy,

Happy Birthday in Heaven. It's been 9 years since you left this world and I know that you're always with us. I just wanted to give you some good news on your birthday and hope you're proud of how far we've come. I know that our actions in this life reflect who you are as a father. Without a doubt YAHUAH has been guiding us on this journey since we last spoke. YAHUAH has provided, covered and protected us in all that we do. Since our time together, we've learned to turn to our heavenl...
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Hi Daddy,

Eight years has passed by since YAHUAH took you from us. I still remember that night just waking up and wondering what was lingering in the air that night. I remember just waking up at 2 am, the smell of death just all around me. I sprayed air freshner and baby powder hoping to cover the scent but it never left. I went back to sleep and then mommy came in the room at 5 in the morning to tell me that your brother called and told her that you had died. At first, I didn't want to believ...
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On this day, I ask YAHUAH to forgive whatever sins you may have committed in human weakness. I ask for forgivness for the wrongs or sins you may have committed onto others. I find that reading "Daniel 9" has helped me grow tremendously duing this day of Atonement.



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Hi Daddy,

Just stopping by to wish you a Happy 61st in heaven. Gone but not forgotten and forever alive in our hearts. You never know how many people your smile and kindness have affected. On this day, we thank YAHUAH for you being in our life. Indirectly, you've taught us a great deal. Yes, at times you made life more difficult that what it was supposed to be but those are moments that we learned and grew from. I have to say with the way the world is going right now, I understand the bigger p...
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Hi Daddy,
Seven years and counting. It's amazing that after seven years I am finally at peace and understanding. All this stems from trusting in YAHUAH. Without him covering us in your absence, I'm not sure I would be in this peace. I want to believe that when you look down on us, we're making you proud. We've come so far in who you are that I have to be thankful for you being my father. You were in our life to show us how to be humble. Even though you're not here physically, you're still teac...
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This post is in memory of my father's brother. His name is Andre.mThey were the youngest of the bothers among the siblings. They were always together. Even thought they were the opposite of each other they still loved each other in their moments of celebrations. Daddy was more laid back and uncle Andre was the business one. With his family, Uncle Andre was loving and jovial. I can say that my father and his bother were my childhood. Without the families living so close I can't imagine what li...
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This post is in memory of my father's brother. His name is Andre.They were the youngest of the bothers among the siblings. They were always together. Even thought they were the opposite of each other they still loved each other in their moments of celebrations. Daddy was more laid back and uncle Andre was the business one. With his family, Uncle Andre was loving and jovial. I can say that my father and his bother were my childhood. Without the families living so close I can't imagine what lif...
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Hi Daddy,

It's been a while. Days have come and gone but that doesn't mean you're not in my thoughts or heart. I often think of you and thank God (Yahuah) that you were in my life. I know that I'm blessed to have you in my life for 31 years. I believe that many people who lost their loved ones way too early would do anything to have their loved ones in the lives for this many years. So each day, I thank God (Yahuah) for loving me so much. A lot has happened since your birthday. This year Bayra...
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Hi Daddy,

Want to wish you a happy 60th in heaven. I'm trying to imagine how you would have celebrated it if you were still with us. I can't say if we would have been together or if you would have been in Guyana alone. The only thing I can do is to go by memory and what's in my heart. One thing that caught me off guard was this past Monday I went to a service and a guys' phone began ringing. His ring tone was one of those songs that you would enjoy while taking a drink or two. When I heard the...
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Hi Daddy,

Bring in 2019 with the blessing of Yahuah, hope, grace, happiness and a gracious heart. The year promises to be a year of change for the better. I can't wait for you to discover 2019 through my eyes and spirit. I thank Yahuah for showing me the revelations of my heart's desire. As I was heading to work yesterday I saw a man who looked like you. He kept looking at me but I was afraid to look at him. While he was closing his eyes I looked at him. Even though you are not here physically...
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It has been six years and counting. The memories seem like they were only yesterday. I can still remember your excitement when we went back to Guyana to surprise you in 2005. You were so happy. I can still see the joy in your eyes and hear the happiness in your voice. You took us to all the neighbors and introduce us to all of them. You were always so happy with the littlest things, never anything too extravagant, this is something that I strive for in this lifetime. With all the disadvantage...
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It has been six years now and counting but the memories seem like they were only yesterday. I still remember your excitement when we went back to Guyana to surprise you in 2005. You were so happy and that's how I will always remember you. I can still see the smile on your face and hear the happiness in your voice. You ran over to all the neighbors and introduce us to all of them. It was the littlest things that made you happy, nothing too extravagant, something I strive for in this lifetime. ...
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Hi Daddy,

I'm a bit late. I've been really really sick, it was one after the next with me the last couple of weeks. If it is wasn't my eye, it was my throat, a fever, flu, cold, earache and everything else in between. However, I know how blessed I am and thanks to God and Lord Jesus as easily as these illness came they went away so all is well now. I just wanted to take the time to wish you a happy birthday in heaven and thank you for walking beside me and guiding me through all of my most dif...
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Wishing you a happy 2018 in heaven daddy. What can I say, I did everything I planned on New Year's Eve. I wished everyone a Happy New Year back in the states, cause where I'm living, New Year is celebrated 8 hours ahead. I went to bed and then woke up to wish everyone back in the states a happy New Year. Before I went back to bed, I left on "I Love Lucy" playing - I watched it every Christmas day. While I was sleeping I had a dream about my father. It was every part of my life- family, houses...
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Hi Daddy,
It's been five years to date from when we heard that you were no longer with us. Even sitting here and writing this I am still left wondering what happened to you in your final hours. All of these images and my imagination running wild I will never be able to have any closure of what happened. Every night I thank you for always being there and guiding me through my most difficult moment but sometimes it gets overwhelming. I try not to get too emotional but in the end I walk around be...
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It's been a while but never has a day passed by without me thinking of you, daddy. I am so thankful and grateful for the opportunities I've had so far. I know without my angel and God guidance I wouldn't have been able to do what I did and what I am doing. I was lucky enough to be able to travel to a country that I never thought I would be in a million years and it was such a wonderful experience. I don't know how I did it but I was able to face and overcome every challenge possible. From lan...
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This year I'm a little late with my father's day post because a project which was done in memory of you and with the guidance of God. I cannot go into details as things are uncertain over here, however I know that with my angel by and side and God watching over us we were able to complete this mission. It was an absolute incredible journey and I felt like I was truly blessed. I hope one day I would be able to go into detail about all the miracles we witnessed on this journey without the fear ...
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Wishing you a happy birthday in heaven. I'm a little early due to the time difference over here. On this day, I want to thank God for allowing you to be a part of my life for 30+ years. Without you, I'm not sure of how I would have turned out. I know this much...because of your presence, I've learned how to be independent, hard working and try to keep a smile on my face during my trials. I've learned how to enjoy the smallest joys in my life and be thankful for the sacrifices you and mommy ma...
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A lot has been lost, learned, gained, and endured this year. And for everything I'm thankful because he increased my faith and made me stronger than before. A few things I've leaned is that I have too my expectations in people and then I end up getting disappointed, I tried to please people but still they weren't happy, I worry about silly things and most of the time I wanted people to validate what I was doing in order for me to feel better about myself. Then I come back and realize that I'v...
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It has been over 3 years now since I last heard your voice. I remember those phone calls I would get from you when you used to tell us you didn't want your three children to fight, you wanted us to live in unity. I can only hope that we're making you proud by not fighting each other and supporting one another. I know that you're guiding us and you're watching over us because when things seem difficult at first somehow we get it done. I know that you're giving us strength and you're protecting...
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My father was a recluse. He did not care much about what was popular or who he should impress in life. One thing was true to core was his love for his mother. He went as far as to sell his wedding ring to buy a present for his mother. I'm not saying this made him a wonderful person as his actions did hurt my mother but I just wanted to show the depth of his love for his mother. He wanted to be the best for his mother but in the end he was unable to say good-bye to her when she passed away and...
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It's been a while since my last entry and I have to say it's not because I didn't think about my father, it's just so easy to get caught up in things that are not important. In these moments I realized that I will always have a place in my heart for my father but at the same time I have to continue moving on with life. To come to such a realization was not easy because the moment of feeling guilty that I'm ok with moving on, a part of me can't help to think that I will forget him and this is ...
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Wishing you a Merry Christmas daddy in heaven. Thank you for everything you've done and guiding us this year. I hope you're happy and proud of what we have done and accomplished so far. I see all the bad things that are happening all around me and I begin to feel blessed for the safe haven, dreams and hopes you and mommy had and still have in us. I am thankful for everything this year even my struggles because without them I wouldn't be where I am today. So on this Christmas day I want...
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Hi Daddy,

It's been a while since I posted but things are a little complex from when I last posted. I hope you're proud of what I am doing but I also know that you would want me to be happy. I am happy and thankful for everything you and mommy have taught me in life. I know without these experiences, challenges and obstacles life would not be life. The truth is sometimes I think it's too much for one person to handle and every time I think that I have it worse I think of everything you had to ...
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Hi Daddy,
Just want to wish you a Happy Father's Day in Heaven. I've been away for a while and I'm sure you know what's been going on. Every time I am ready to give up I think about what you had to go through and realize that the things I face in this world today can ever compare to what you had to go through. One piece of advice I try to use daily  that you always said was "na take worries", so you know what I am not...whatever happens will happen. I also remember the "serenity prayer" you to...
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Today I was put in a position to be there for someone and I know that I tried my very best. This was one of the toughest decision I've ever had to make in my life. I did everything I could and i know that there is nothing else I can do or could have done differently. See at this moment in my life someone is going through the same things my father went through and it is so difficult having to watch the same events repeat themselves while standing there helplessly. I know that the events that I...
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Today my dad would have been 55 years old. If he was still with us I know I would have received a phone call from him. I don't get to hear his voice anymore or his words of advice "not to take on worries". All I have to do is live with the memories and knowing that he is looking out for us.I hope we can make him proud of us on his birthday. There are so many things that our father has helped us out with through this year and I know he will continue walking besides us. Love you daddy...until w...
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I have to say there have been moments when I want to fall apart, but I think about what my dad had to go through and it gives me the courage to go on with life. I am not talking about my career or anything for that matter, its more about being accepted. No matter what I do I am being judged. I think that my dad had to face the same dilemma. Of course he had some bad moments but so many people focus on his bad habits than all the sacrifices he made for the people around him. When I think about...
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Hey daddy,
Technically it's not the first day of the New Year yet. Even though I'm in Istanbul and it's 1:04am, I'm still going to wait for the New Year to begin according to New York time which is in the next four hours. This year my resolution is to be more humble, just like you. I posted a few Christmas photos on facebook and this girl made a comment about the kind of person you are (I'm not going to say you were, because you're still my dad). This is what she wrote "i did knew him when him...
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Hi Daddy, Today is Christmas and for some reason I don't feel all that alone because instead of thinking of you being far away, I choose to believe that we're driving home for Christmas. One day we will be together again for Christmas. By thinking this way I will believe that you're only a drive away from us. Also just wanted to share this memory with you.  I remember one Christmas in Florida we all woke up early and opened our presents. After we finished opening our presents we all spent tha...
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Hi Daddy,

Today is the one year mark since you left us and went to God's Kingdom. I know that you're watching over us and helping us through our difficult moments. Daddy, I am not going to lie, I wish things were a lot different than they were. I don't know where to start so I'm not going to bring up any bad feelings. Its just so strange how things happened the way they did. I have to believe that God knows what he's doing, so I am not going to question his choice. I just want to let you know ...
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I always say that my father is the kind of person that would give anyone his last dollar. He was not concerned with money, he just want everyone to be happy. I saw this last night with my brother, although my bother is going through a difficult time financially, he still wants to make everyone around him have a good time. His friend's sister passed away so he was trying to help him keep his mind off that he can't go back any sooner to Trinidad. My cousin came from Guyana and my brother is mak...
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Today, I woke up and just scroll through my facebook account. I saw this little quote that made me cry. My father's gemstone is aquamarine. I've been trying to buy a piece of jewelry in aquamarine to wear. It just happens this morning I saw this and it made me cry. To me I feel like my father is watching over me.


 

Today (3/11/13) on my way to work, when the bus stopped to pick up passengers, I was facing a light pole with the numbers 2213. For me this was a little sign, because my father's Bir...
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My dad always wanted the best for his three children. I remember him making us study on Saturdays and Sundays. After three hours of studying, we had to revise what we studied to him. The one word that I remember him always testing me on was "substance". I had to give the definition, and spell it back to him. I don't know why that word always gave me so much ...
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